“Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from God, and that you are not your own?” 1 Corinthians 6:19 (NRSV)
A few days ago, I had a moment. I had just come off a weekend of cooking and baking multiple new recipes. My freezer was packed, my fridge full of things I could eat and wanted to eat. I had just bought a bread pan because I was stoked to try this almond flour recipe.
In that moment I cried, noted it, texted my mom and one of my best friends. For the first time in my life, I felt emboldened by food and secure in my body.
The fact is, I have struggled my whole life with my body like many. The verse from 1 Corinthians has always been a sore spot in my life. As a Christian, I believe that we are all intrinsically intertwined embodied spirits. Yet, my body has often been a spot of anxiety, fear, and chronic disconnect.
What does one do when your body is a temple constantly under scrutiny due to societal norms of what is healthy? When your physical body aka temple shuns certain foods? When your physical body aka temple is broken? When your physical body aka temple needs to be repaired for building regulations?
In the August of 2012, a few months after starting summer school for seminary, I started a journey of wholeness. I was 211 pounds; unhappy with my body and it was not well with my soul. I couldn’t physically do the things that I wanted to and was eating extremely poorly. My life needed to change.
It was finally time to embrace my embodiment and I had no idea that it would take five years. These blogs aren’t written to glorify weight loss, it’s about my personal journey to embrace my embodiment that is linked to my spiritual well being. I believe we all have a journey to our temple’s wholeness and that looks different from person to person.
My aim is to be honest with who I am, where I come from, and where I am now. Part 2 will speak to my struggles with foods in the form of my food allergies. In Part 3 I will talk about having Bell’s Palsy when I was in elementary school and then slipping a disk in my back at the age of 16. I will end in Part 4 on my journey to an embodied wholeness where I finally start to love and feel emboldened in my body.